Tough week!!

Mom, Bobby & Chase drove out for a visit. 3 day drive, 9 day visit, 3 days back to NC. We had a great time & the boys played well all week. We went to Red Rocks, Dinosaur Ridge, Morrison, Estes Park, Rocky Mountain & lots of other fun things, even Horse Races! It felt like a bit of home out here... Great time!! They headed out Sunday so Cooper would have time to adjust before starting school Monday. Todd raced Daytona Saturday night, so Sunday we hung out & went to movies to see Despicable Me 2. It was a good day, but kinda moopy. Coop was quite & I was sad. Finally that night Coop broke down... Very upset crying & just kept saying he was 'sad' not for anything, just sad. It was pitiful, he didn't know why he was sad, just felt it. Monday AM we got up & ready for school, he was excited, but nervous. Todd kept Spencer so I could take Cooper. Being all new to us, we didn't know what to expect. All was good until it was time for me to walk away and that sweet little boy broke down and ran after me. My heart just broke!! I walked with him to class as he cried and Ms. Beth said I could come in for a bit. I only went in until he found his seat & told him I was going. That sweet sole said OK and I left. I of course lost it in the car & was a basket case by the time I got home. The helpless feeling of not being able to fix it, killed me. I worried & prayed & counted minutes all day. Melissa text me to say she saw him sitting by hisself at recess so she went to visit him for a bit. He was happy for me to pick him up... But the rest of the day & night he got upset even talking about his day, saying he just missed me and thinking about him still makes him sad. It breaks my heart to think about all his disadvantages, new state, new school, missing Kindergarten, etc. We talked & I told him I cried too, then we promised we'd not cry tomorrow.... So bless his heart, this morning he got up & ready and we headed over. He told me bye & gave me a sad little smile. But no tears... The minutes creeped by today & when I finally got to pick him up he was in a much better mood. He said he had a couple times that he teared up, but he told me all about the fun things they did. He talked SO much better, so I pray each day will get better for him. Now for me to accept this is the beginning of him growing up, then out.... Agh!! I don't like this. I want my boys back with me all day. Spencer starts Preschool tomorrow, so we'll see how it goes. This is a week I have not looked forward to, we'll all be glad to have it pass on.